i dropped all of my lovers. i stood up and screamed ' I'm in love! ' you gave it to me through the eyes, hatred. centuries deep and true. i was wrong, graceless, and sick. all of the things that i had learned had been wasted. there was no living creature as foul as i, and all of my poems were false. i could feel my soul, dropping down through the mattress. i had to leap up before it hit the floor. and I'm so alone. illumination held out in front of my reaching arms. the darker things get the better i see. I'm so alone and so are you, we all live and die that way.